Monday, January 19, 2015

I'm embarrassed to admit.

Girl is bored and frustrated with the Mormon men and gets in okcupid. After all, GSC was on okcupid and he's normal, she muses. She received so many messages, it made her head spin. Some she considered. Some she was horrified. She laughed at most. 

In the course of conversation with one, they decide to meet up at a notting hill Starbucks. All is well. They get their drinks and walk and talk. No big deal. He drinks and smokes. She does neither. But the conversation was easy. "This is how dating Mormon guys should be!" She declares in her mind. 

But she's not actually interested in the guy. He called her hon, which is a term if endearment we abhors. She tried to ignore it. He didn't know any better. But she's just not interested. 

She put him off, lying about certain details so he would never find her. 
She's clearly paranoid.

They go on this one date in November. She left on a trip and he texted her safe journeys and that he missed her. 

She is alarmed by his attachment. Already taking forever to respond to his texts, her responses became shorter and snarkier. 

She received a text around New Years, wishing her a happy one and a "goodnight princess." 
Princess?? 

Is he drugged? Medicated? He surely knows she is not going to sleep with him, right? 

He is too attached. She tried to end their conversations. She doesn't even remember his name. He is in her phone under the name "AVOID." He tells her he misses her. 
"Don't be silly," she says. 
"I am not being silly (name), what would a simple guu like me want more that a decent successful person to hang out with, who knows maybe I will fall in love with you as I already like you." 

She is alarmed. 
she is mortified. 
She is annoyed. 
She tells him he is showing his hand too soon. 

"Not really (name), I dont blame you for saying that and I wish if you have gave me the chance to approach my self, I have no bad intentions to you, all what I have for you is love and respect"

"That's very nice, but I am not interested in pursuing this any further. "

"Ok (name) I appreciate and respect that, thank you anyway, wish you all the best please if you need anything any help one day just dont be hesitated I will always be supporting you."

-I will always be supporting you.- 

seriously? 

Yes. Clearly a solid bond was made in that ONE MEETING! In what world would she go to him for anything? She is not alone. She was never dependent on him. 

All in all... 

She had an entire relationship that she wasn't really a part of...